A while ago, I started a journey... It was the journey that caused me to find ITS, it was the journey that caused me to change my diet, it was the journey that caused me to take control, and it was the journey that caused me to lose over 80 pounds. I have been working on and around computers from my youngest days, and I had the body of the standard computer user. Flabby and fat. I let it consume me, told myself it was fine because I was a computer person and didn't need to be fast or strong... But I was wrong.
Back then I would have thought nothing of ordering 2 large pizzas to feed 2 people without leftovers, now I won't even eat pizza to begin with. Back then I was winded going up stairs, now I run several times a week and do strength training on my non-run days. Back then I wore XXL shirts and 44 pants, now I wear mediums or larges depending on the cut and 34 pants. Back then I could barely move myself, let alone fight... sure I had the knowledge and tactics... but my body could execute none of them. Now I am a lean and lethal machine, able to faithfully defend myself, my wife, and anyone else.
So what started this dramatic change? I decided to chase a dream I gave up in my teens. I decided I wanted to be a cop. Not because the pay is awesome, but because I (as cliche as it may be) genuinely want to defend and serve the public. I want to make the streets of my city safe at any hour. I want to make a difference. But to make a difference, I had to be different. In two months I lost over 35 pounds towards my goal of being healthy, I started running and working out regularly. It wasn't enough and my body wasn't ready, a week before the once a year tryout for the local police and I was injured while training. Instead of giving up I spent the next year of my life pushing harder than I ever thought I could. I went from 266 to 175, I went from barely walking for an hour to running 20-30 minutes. I went from being unable to climb a 6 foot wall to being able to fly over the wall.
I decided to eat along the Paleo diet (which has helped me reach and maintain a healthy diet) because I needed a starting place for a healthy body. It was sacrifice giving up my favorite foods, but it was worth it to be in control of my diet again. It caused me to be a tougher person, it caused me to sacrifice whatever it took to get where I wanted to be. Years ago, I would never have dreamed that I would give up time gaming to work out... but this is the new me, the real me, the me I always wished I could become.
A year and change later, I am lighter, faster, and stronger. I am running well under the time required by my state for police officer candidates. And it happens again. I was doing one final practice run at the police academy and after never having been injured running, I went down hard (with a bounce). I shredded my skin, sprained my ankle, and shook my confidence in all I have done. I recovered quickly, healing faster than I should be able to, I have clearance to go tomorrow morning and give it a shot.
When I go tomorrow morning, I am at peace. Whatever happens, happens. I am apprehensive about my chances. I would have loved to spend the last weeks training, but instead I have been resting my ankle. I have done all that I can to ensure I am worthy to join whom I wish to soon refer to as MY brothers in blue.
This journey was not a journey to be healthy, this was my journey to fulfill my duty. My duty to my family as their protector and provider, my duty to my God to maintain this temple suitably, and my duty to the department I want so badly to join. I truly think I was ready before the most recent injury and now I must see if I am ready anyway.
I write this from my heart for those of you who may be letting yourself go physically, mentally, and emotionally. Whatever your goal, wherever your life takes you, be prepared so that you can prevail in any situation. It is easier to lose 5 pounds now than 80 pounds down the road. Do not procrastinate your life away as I did for far too long. Remember your duty.
I want to take the time to thank a couple people on this forum... when I first was injured this past time, my morale crumbled. I was all geared to go and do this thing, but now here I am flat on my back. I quickly recovered the correct attitude of recover and dominate, but there was a bit of a hesitation to get back on it. DStevenson and Mangeface both took the time to listen to me and encourage me to get back on it and push through it. They both took the time to listen to where I felt stuck and provide whatever advice or feedback they could on how to break through... more than anything, they kept me moving and they kept my spirits up. Thanks brothers, drinks are on me if you ever get to my area!
I will post the results of my tryout tomorrow, I know this is only the first step in a long process, but this has been the hurdle that has held me back the longest.
- mikejulietpapa, SwatDawg335, mangeface and 8 others like this